Thursday, December 8, 2011

The Path of Humility

My journey to humility began simply enough. All I had to do was sit down and shut up. And listen. In Mere Christianity, CS Lewis writes “The first step for one that wishes to acquire humility is to recognize that they have pride.” Well that's true, the first step to change anything is to recognize one has it. The first two words of the whole 12 step program is “We admitted...” Its a very simple spiritual principle.
Of course, people are sometimes clueless... I know I was. I had to begin by sitting down and shutting up and listening to others. I mean really listen. Its harder to do than one might think. I know this because once I started doing it I found that EVERYBODY talks about themselves. Wow, is that what I was doing.
Its a small step... but an important one. Its kinda like looking in the mirror when you shave or put on makeup. Kinda hard to do without the mirror. And it may take weeks for some to realize that they are looking in a mirror, because its the pride that keeps us focused on ourselves, and using our own standard to measure others. So it takes a while of listening to others before we realize that we are actually looking at ourselves.
The thing about pride is that its the anti-God. There's a real easy trick to seeing if you have some. Just ask how other people's pride makes you feel. If you're like most, seeing other's pride infuriates you. That's how it works. Pride is competition. Its me me me.... so anyone else displaying their pride is going to make your pride jump up in animosity.
Pride separates.
God unites.?
Simple, huh?
That's why the “shutting up” part is important in this first step. It does not good to argue pride against pride. All it does is make the pride stronger in both of you. That's how this stuff spreads.

Go to just about any community, online or off, that argue about the bible. Does it make you feel warm and fuzzy? Is there a weight and significance of God?
Or when its over do people go to their isolation corners and lick their wounds? Alone? Even if they are surrounded by people that say, “You were right,” they still feel alone.
That's what pride does. It isolates us. Because its very nature is enmity. It exalts itself at the expense of others. And that's the real sin... the people that “win” those kind of arguments feel just as hollow.

So how does this whole concept make you feel? Seriously... Do you feel angry? Like you just want to stay away from those “idiots”? You want them to leave you alone?
Or as they are railing at you and spitting on you and trying to hurt you to get you to accept God and the bible their way and jump through their hoops and calling it God... do you want to hug them and cry with them?
In Matthew 9:36 it says that Jesus saw the multitudes and felt compassion for them. In his guts, like a punch in the solar plexus. These are the people that were going to kill him for his “heresies”. And he knew it. But it changes nothing, the compassion and tears is what it looks like when we realize that these people are hurting themselves worshipping their pride.

Eventually I found out what kind of person I really was. A piece of crud. This is also an important step in humility, but its just a step to something better. Some people do confuse this step with the destination. Its easy to get stuck here, especially if the people that are supposed to be helping you encourage it.
Nowhere in the bible does Jesus teach us to say “I am a sinner.” Its important to realize the exact nature of our coming short, but we don't live there.
This also is an important concept about Christianity that many followers of churchianity use to oppress. Its actually very effective to keep people dependent on you if you want them in your church on Sunday. Then you can give them feel good messages that get them to focus on the feeling and call it God. And if they feel down you can just tell them its their fault and they have to pray more or read the bible more or be more holy.
We are already holy. The problem is that we equate God with warm fuzzies.
This is something that we have been warned against for centuries. The weight and significance of God is not a feeling. We have to move beyond judging the effectiveness of our prayer based upon our feelings. Do you really want a God that you can't communicate with if you had a bad night's sleep?
But we measure things by the “message”, meaning if the message or sermon or whatever makes us feel good then its of God. I'm sure it is, but that's not the sum total of it. To just treat it as though that is the goal or the result we seek makes us junkies. We use God to run from pain.
The way God set things up is that the Law creates sin. He wants us to know that there is no Law that will save us, there is nothing that we can do better or less or in any greater quantity for salvation.
I like the book of Romans. If all I had was the book of Romans I could make it. The others are good too, but Paul was really talking to the Gentile church (which I am a part) for God when he wrote this one.
Romans 1:16- ...For it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that beloved...
This theme is repeated again and again. It means that God alone gives us salvation. He gave us Jesus.
The law doesn't give us salvation, following the laws do not give us salvation, following doctrines or churches or pastors or events or food drives or planting churches or nothing... God alone.
And he's already done it.
Keep reading the beginning of Romans and you get to several parts where Paul says exactly this... Down around 1:21 he starts talking about how the Law was made to have weight and significance instead of God, and it was foolish and sin. He spends the next few chapters driving the point home. The Law creates sin...
We need someone to fulfill the law for us. Someone that would do it in such a way that every single person on the planet would have the Law that gives eternal life fulfilled once and for all.
Everyone.
So... he goes on about how we are no better than they, that no one is righteous.... churchianity has been using this stuff for years to make people slaves to their doctrine with fear and guilt. Give them laws no one can keep then when they feel guilty, tell them to be churchimaniacs more, which will make it even worse as they keep trying to hold onto some standard that's impossible... this is the story of the Old testament in real life... In our churches every day.
Don't believe me. Read it yourself, investigate, be honest.
Jesus came to free us from this stuff.

So it is important to realize that we fall short, but not to stay there. Its part of the plan, why we need Jesus, but its just a way-station. Its there for us to realize that we are not better than anyone else... humility, remember?
The trick then is to come to the point where we can honestly not think of ourselves first....


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